Hi, My name is Micah Park Biffle, I am the author of ' A Man's Traveled Heart,' I am a Veteran who found his way back through writing. I consider myself an architect of the imagination. Here you will see my creations come to life. My short stories, poems, my thoughts, and a little touch of my life.
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A Story of Me, Dare I Say
A Story of Me, Dare I Say
I buried my heart years before I
knew what life meant, before I ever took a moment to explore the kingdom that
is within me.
Before the coming of age, I fell
to the preaches of the popular and the cool. I listened to unsightly words become
labels of me, such as,“stupid” on needless occasions, as students looked on and
the teacher pointed. I fell prey to the voices that cluttered my existence of
who I was, and what I was meant for.
As time passed I struggled with
the savoring of poison, numbing my thoughts and the voices that crept. Feeding the urge to make it all go away with the joys of pills and the rare
occasion of coke drowned with whiskey and false laughter that came with it.
Only to end each night with quivering misery and spiteful hate toward myself.
With misery building her home
inside me, I left myself locked behind walls with tears sunken in a well, never
to be released. Skirting the thoughts that would leave not only my heart buried
but my flesh.I had demons clawing at the walls
of my mind, coming to fruition in my dreams, leaving me restless like the
ticking of a clock. Always going never stopping. Anxiety swept the air like
foul stench of rot. I found myself insatiably tasting the sour flavors of pity.
Waiting for a hand to pull me from this hell I so maliciously adored.
I thought there was nothing to
save me, that this is all I had. Yet, there was a something in me, a voice, a
voice I believe that had always been there, call it God, the universe, call it
what you may. But it found its way through the empty echoes of my shadows.
could hear it, constant, like a soft breeze to my ear, whispering for me to
create, to spill ink upon paper, to venture into myself. And when all felt that
all would collapse on me as I emptied a bottle down the dry walls of my throat,
tearful eyes clouded my sight and I found myself writing an entire book. It was
a release from all the pain and sorrow I had held inside for far too long.
Keeping it locked away like the denial of dreadful disease. I had finally found
what had always been yearning in me.
Writing broke down the walls I had built so
high and gave me a view of myself so beautiful, my heart wept along with my
soul.I now have the ability to dig up
my heart and place it in its proper home.
So now I say to you, if your
heart is buried, find that tool, that will help you dig it up. For something in
you is yearning to come to creation of life.
I believe their is a talent in all of us, have you found yours?
The Scar of War And His Suicide To Escape It
He returned with a heavy heart. With a fierce storm raging in rain, thunder, and dark clouds. Memories of war collided beneath his chest. His lost brothers he could feel in the very bones of his soul. Nothing felt the same in this place he called home.
No words could describe the surmountable anguish that tore each second at his mind, creating a vast chasm. Loneliness slowly consumed him. Leaving him branded as a mental case, coming unhinged to reality. Drowning in the constant flavor of hops. Leaving no moment to be sober. Covering the storm with another, that if the fog became to thick to see, then his pain did not exist.
Flooded with anxiety of what he left behind in the chaos of war. He could not escape the nagging of all the thoughts he prayed to forget. Tarnished he felt, guilty, burdened, he felt far from a hero. Though each friend, each member of his family embraced him as one.
And on each night of his return, he sat at that foot o…
A Boy and A War
The train had just left the station, his thoughts creep with nostalgia as he watches is home fade into the horizon. His chest holds a nervous wreck, only seventeen and knows nothing beyond his home. He wears an old green t-shirt with red lettering that reads, The Red Menace is real.
His hair short, cut in the manner of a well respected boy. His eyes glitter with sadness as he has to leave everything behind. He knew this day would come but he wasn't ready, he had just graduated high school and was ready for adventure.
But now, he is well pressed into the chaos of the world. About to be armed in the fighting against a world enemy. For months he had heard the stories and updates of the war on the nightly radio. But it was all too surreal that he will now be part of such stories.
He can still hear the radio announcer speaking of the enemy bombarding the world as if to rid it of cancer. As the train moves further from his home he can still feel the tears of his mother…
To those that are depressed, I bring you these words and hope they fill the belly of your soul and nourish your heart,
Today, may be tougher than the former or maybe not. Maybe, today is like any other day, you struggling to remove yourself from your bed is but a wishful feat and nothing more. As you are coiled in the monotony of sadness that seeps from you like foul breath; from a desperate evening of melancholy. Maybe, the mere action to place a smile upon your face may feel like lifting the world from your chest.
I know these feelings well, I know them as well as I know the color of my eyes. I know when even a sunrise is no more joyful than a slaved day at work. When the world is pressing you into the unimaginable sinking of despair.
Where the air is thin but anxious thoughts a rabid. Where colors fade and all you see is grey and the whispers of death sound so sweet. Maybe you have fallen much further than I, where the act of infliction's don't jus…